Pain

Deep within my soul

locked within my heart

lie my feelings for you

swirling within my chest

i feel the locks eroding

and the latches coming undone

until finally the lid is flown back

and my locked up emotions spew forth

from their shallow grave

within my shattered heart

and consume my body and soul

They wash over me like a lost fairytale

that i seem to never be able to escape

I feel the emotions surround me

and i drown in the pain all over again

the pain of losing you,

the pain and hate of still loving you

When i feel the emotions for u

rising again from its hollow crypt

i feel my mental shovels beginnin to dig

and i feel my mental worker fix the chest

which held all of our memories:

our good times

our laughs

our tears

our kisses

our special moments together

and all my love i still carry for you:

All that work they are doing,

Leaves me defensless to the pain

of our memories

our love still within me

and of the pain you still caused me

and the pain that i caused you,

that remains fresh within my heart.

However when the chest is finished

and the aperture is uncovered,

Then i'll close the lid once again on us

And expunge our memories from my heart

and no longer try to remember my love for you.

I'll place the dirt upon this chest of ours

and feel the calm slowly come over me.

You'll feel one more tear hit the top of our crypt:

Me wishin we'd've lasted but knowin

that we'll never be

and it's time to leave you in the past.

But will this grave stay under the earth of my heart

or will it rise agasin to torture me for letting him leave???