Conflicting thoughts

Who would I be?
If I was with you
Would I still do
The terrible things I do?

If your lips touched mine
Would it really change a thing?
I know I feel something
But I'm not sure what it means

Like petals to a flower
That's how we fit together
But would we fall away and die
Not all things live forever

What if we tried it?
If I left my other behind
Would things get easier?
Or would constant regret be on my mind

I don't want to hurt you
But I want to make you happy too
I wish I knew what I wanted
And if it's being with you

I know you think a kiss
Really wouldn't hurt
But I know it would bring more pain
Than any kiss is worth

I can't be with you
Whether that decision is right or wrong
Even if it's a possibility
That me and you belong

I wish I could be the person
That is meant for you
So I could stop damaging your heart
And tell you the truth

I'll never know who I'd be
If I were with you
I guess that just something as friends
We'll both have to get through...