Anxiety

I lack the concentration
to transfer the information
into a normal conversation
without the need for added explanation
of my limitations
or personal complications
while I try hide my desperation
tightly wound up in moderation
so that I don't cause a manifestation
of my trials and tribulations
by own devastation
at the lack of dedicatoin
caused by my parents condemnation
Where I did not earn their admiration
just suffer their manipulation
while delcaring my appreciation
for my own isolatoin
from the rest of civilazation
so I lack communication
create my own alientation
social starvation
leading to anticipation
needing others validation
destroying reconciliation
to my own humilation
as I feel my growing hestitation
to just be me.