Why Am I Back Here ??

I am over this life,
I cant stand the future,
Cant forget the past,
Cant live this any more.

All the bridges are on fire,
All the doors are locked,
The hills are too steep,
And the rivers are too wide.

I see you all on the other side,
Laughing and pointing at my disgrace,
As I huddle and shake alone,
Nowhere to go, drifting out to sea....