Slowly Dying Girl

She was discriminated by her family,
Always lived in fear.
Her daddy said he hated her,
But she never let them see a tear.

She was never included.
Her parents were never proud.
Her voice was never important.
Her dreams were not aloud.

There was always something wrong with her,
Not smart enough, never did anything right.
But she never had any help,
So she cried herself to sleep each night.

No friends to understand her.
Nobody seemed to care.
She truly believed she was worthless.
She thought what she got was fair.

A home which never welcomed her.
A school which called her bad.
A family who said she was a mistake.
A life which kept her sad.

As years began to pass by,
She felt her life was incomplete.
But then a boy began to like her,
Someone so kind and sweet.

She never knew what was happening.
Nobody would ever think of her at night.
Someone who loved her for the person she was?
It just couldn't have been right.

She met the boy and fell in love,
But little did he know,
She planned to take her life before him,
But she never let it show.

Until this day she's never told him
Just how much he changed her life.
About how she wouldn't be here without him,
If it weren't for his love holding back her knife.

But now this girl has lost her life again,
Because her past made her do something wrong.
And all she can say is sorry to him.
She has no clue that he cared for her all along.

She would do anything to change it,
Anything to have it back,
Because now all she does is cry again.
Her fear has come back to attack.

Christmas time is coming soon,
The one time of year she hates the most.
She knows he's not going to be there with her,
She believes they will never again be close.

She will say sorry as many times as he will listen.
She will rip out her heart for him to just see,
That the never good enough girl screwed up again,
And this slowly dying girl is me.