A Lost Soul

A lost soul, wondering aimlessly,
without a state of mind.
Too cold, too heartbroken, too shunned upon,
...too blind.
Time surpasses,
all remains the same.
Continuously wondering,
who is this person I have became?
So many unanswered questions.
So many misunderstood lies.
So many friendships broken.
so many goodbyes.
Too afraid of being in love,
Yet, too afraid of being alone.
All these feelings in life,
I seem to loan.
Feelings twisted...
Twisted into a vortex of confusion.
Why does everything in life,
seem to be nothing more than an illusion?
So many distraught thoughts,
that I cannot seem to grasp hold.
Sometimes needing a shoulder to cry on.
But never having a place to unfold.
Always the one being leaned on.
Never being able to lean back.
What are all these simple things in life
I seem to lack?
Living in darkness.
Feeling like I'm buried deep within a dark hole.
Who is this person I am?
Nothing more than a lost soul.