You're Not My Hero Anymore.

I tossed and turned all night last night,
Switched from screaming to simple tears.
Fought the pain with all that I had left,
Tried to squish all these abnormal fears.

Your face is still so utterly bittersweet,
Placing me in flashbacks I wish to forget.
Cause I still feel the sadness on your face,
And I can still see the anger and the regret.

I remember all those nights I feigned sickness,
Just so you wouldn't visit my room that night -
They're beginning to hit me like a ton of bricks,
And I'm not sure I have it left in me to fight.

You've stolen the best parts of my childhood,
Simply disregarded my heart, tossed me away.
And now, I'm left shuffling through what's left,
Trying to transform this constant night into day.

So please don't ever tell me that you're sorry,
I really don't want to hear all those useless lies.
Because in the end, it won't change who you are,
And it will never erase all of my midnight sighs.

Now, I'll make an attempt at falling asleep tonight,
And I'll think about your lonely face once more.
Trying to distinguish all these lies from the truth,
Because daddy isn't the hero I used to adore.

October 5, 2008
(c) Stephanie Lynn