Spilled

The tears that I have spilled
From my burning eyes
Leave trails of sorrow
As I remember your goodbyes

My hands are always shaky
Giving away my hidden pain
Making it harder to convince
Everyone that I am still sane

My silent screams in empty rooms
Are becoming difficult to suppress
Telling every one who asks
That its all just stress

The grief of your absence
Slowly breaking down my mask
Forcing me to drink away your memory
From my veiled flask

The pain all around me
And inside my heart
Is scaring me about what will happen
When I start to fall apart

My ground that holds me up
Is crumbling beneath me
Compelling me it's hopeless that some one
Has heard my hearts plea

My agony that surrounds me
Is starting to take over
Making the knife in my hand
Move and come closer

The red stains on the floor
From my sin
Lets me know I have done the right thing
As happiness and relief rises from within