I wish I could go back in time to fix the past
Every painful memory in my mind that still lasts
The words and pain I had put you through
I never wanted to hurt you
I know I wouldn't have hurt you so bad
If you didn't worry or care about me
That's why I feel so much misery
I should have been there for you
like you were there for me
you lost your brother and I lost a friend
I guess everything really does have to come to an end
I wanted so bad to embrace you as your tears fell
But I'd push myself away into my invisible cell
Through your grieving
I always worried about you leaving
Although I know I was distant
Because this numbness made me nonexistent
Not a day goes by I don't wish
I could take back what I did
And all the things that I had said
But the regretful memories remain
Just like a blood soaked stain
in my heart I know things won't ever be the same
all the while knowing I was to blame
I say sorry to you
Knowing forgiveness is not an option
Because the past I cannot undo
