Lost & Alone

A feeling unexplainable to tell
So lost and damaged inside
So full of sadness and anger
That i try so hard to hide

Everynight i sit i feel everything
And how im stuck in this pause place
Where i feel nothing but empty
And i show it in my face

I keep holding the blade tightly
But i dont want to die
I feel the raw pain inside me
And i just want to break down and cry

I sit and look and pray i could end this
By dying or just running some more
I ask for 1second to just be free
But i can never open the door

Everynight im at home i look out the window
And feel the cold touch my bone
Feeling so much pain,hurt and anger
And im just alone.