Love me...

As i carry the weight of this family feud
which continues to grow heavier
each and everyday,
i sit here crying
whilst the other part of me is dying.

I want this to end,
i want to take back all of those hurtful things
i said,
i want you to be back.
I want my daddy to come back into my life,
i want to get back all the blood I lost
in my war with the knife.

I am breaking,
i am crying,
I am trying
but inside am dying.

I want to go back to a time before you left
I want to tell you how i feel
and how i miss you and just can't seem to deal.
I love you but can't seem to say it
I miss you but each day have to fake it,
I hide my feelings
and although I hardly know you since you left
I still linger with the pain of my broken heart.

i miss the days when you were still here,
my beautiful life is drowned in my tears,
its as if God is ignoring my call.
each day watching me fall,
if only my daddy was still there to catch me when i fall..
I wish you understood the pain which i face,
I wish you understood how my fairytale family has been erased.

did you ever love me,
did you love me at all...