Where did i go wrong?

Where did i go wrong..
what have i done...
why did i let it go that far
why didn't i stop myself
why did i close up
why do i hurt the ones that love me
why can't i talk to her like before
before it all happened
why do i see him the same
i thought i was done
i thought i was ok
i didn't think it would happen again
i told myself i wouldn't let it
i failed myself and everyone who belived in me!
what have i done!
is it too late to fix it!
to make it back to how it used to be!?!
did i lose myself in this mess...
will i ever be the same!
where did i go wrong?!?