I lost him for you

He held my hand in public
Gave me kisses in the rain
Calm downed all my storms
When the world went insane

But you never looked at me
When you were with your friends
When you told me you loved me
You were only playing pretend

So why did I love you more than him
He never told me a single lie
You spent all your effort
Trying to make me cry

He always came back
When I pushed him away
He made and kept promises
When he said he'd always stay

You left without notice
You did your best to hurt me
You made me look like a fool
So all the world could see

So why did I always forgive you
And never forget a bad thing he'd say
Why did I always chase you
And let him walk away

How could I love someone
That hurt me so much
And yet always pull away
From his touch

I never found a way
To love him like you
I gave up something real
For a few unreal moments with you

I wish I could regret my mistakes
But no matter how hard I try
I'd always chose those few good times with you
Because you made me feel alive

I hurt the one person that cared
For the one that would never love me
I gave up everything to be with you
I gave up life, for make believe...