Current State Of Mind

As I lay thinking
I reflect on my past

On reasons how I got where I am
On reasons I let my heart harden

I come to realize
It's just a simple phase

But one that seems to get worse
Each and every time I go through it

My heart always gets colder
And I seem to care less each time

So I have to wonder...
Is it a countdown cycle?

Will I just get worse and worse?
Until the point where I just cant get better?

There has to be someone who can melt my heart
And keep it warm so it never has to freeze from pain again

But with the way things look now
Comfortably numb us the only way I can be

And still be safe
From the pain of the world