That Dreaded Word

I can feel my heart breaking
As I think of all the friends I'm about to lose

This time of my life is quickly coming to an end
And I come to realize that I'm going to have to say those words

Those words I have dreaded my entire life
The words I never wanted to say

The words that have always caused me so much pain
So I temper my heart now

Many of my friends I will never see again
And many more I will only see once more

I can feel my heart
Breaking under all the pain that has yet to come

I can sense the impending end
That is at this point... unavoidable

To all my friends that read this that I will never see after this last year
I just want to let you know

I love you all
And I will miss u all dearly

I will always cherish the memories and fun times we have had
But these words are soon to come

But I will hold my head high
Even though I am breaking to pieces inside

To all those I have loved beyond friendship
Just know I still do

And the fact that I won't even be able to say these words to everyone face to face
Breaks my heart all the more

My heart will freeze till I can bear this burden of loss
And I will not show it to anyone

But to those who care enough to read
I have this to say

I love you dearly
Goodbye

*know this to all who read.... this is not a poem of suicide. while it is depressing and may seem like it i promise everyone it isnt. this poem is a solemn goodbye to all my friends i will lose in the near future and the ones i have already lost. quite scolding me about suicide.*