Dark corner of hell

I'm stuck in this place
where i can't leave nor escape
in this dark corner of hell
I sit and i wait.

Saying I will leave
whnever the time will come
cause I can never understand
what I'm running from.

I'm not sure what it is
But I am just so scared.
Because I don't wanna open my eyes
and look into this nightmare.

I can't feel my hands,
my legs or my face,
all I know is I can't
move from this darkened place.

I can't tremble or shake
from the fear that I hold.
All I can feel is my mind
taking control.

I can't fight these thoughts
but I can hide them from you.
I know I wont start bleeding
if I cut my flesh through.

I cant fight this off
but I choose relief over pain
I know when I get out of this corner
I'll just feel the same.

However if I do choose to get out
and do that for myself.
and promise to stay as far away
from my dark corner of hell.