Tearing yourself apart

Alcohol is like a chemical
it can tear your life apart
it doesnt ever judge you
or pressure you to start.

you don't realize what it does to you
or how it makes your body fade
you just keep lying to yourself
and drink the pain away.

First you did it for fun
thinking it would help.
But then it turned into a game
of losing with yourself.

It helps you deal with your problems
and fight all of your fears.
Upside you forgot everything
downside you can't see clear.

Maybe you'll feel good temporarily
but the pain will haunt you all the time
You think you've won over yourself
but obviously your not fine.

Your body is dying your problems are
climbing and you don't know what to do.
you keep on lying to yourself saying
one more drink,,and I'll be through.

But what you don't realize is that it
only makes it worse in the end.
it will make your body numb but I guess
it all depends.

You started and now you have to finish
and you have no one esle to blame.
It was only once but you have
turned your habit into a game.

You need to know nobody forced you
it was your own choice to start.
because of your lack up judgement
you are slowly tearing yourself apart