This.

I have no words
No rhyme
No rhythm
To explain
[why I'm fighting for you]

I'm scared
Of suffocation
Underwater
Where its just
Too quiet
[to be real]

If you could have seen
My tear stained cheeks
Or could have felt
My eyes burning out the pain
[you might have understood]

I remember
Lies and comfort
Read between
Above
In
The lines you wrote and
Somehow, they seem the
Same now.

Word shakers and anthems
Can't fix this.
This unpoetic tragedy.
[i can't save you by wishing,
hoping,
dreaming,
begging.]

What you said
What they said
Repeat.
Delete.
And lie.
I still don't understand
[but i know you wont be okay]

Permanently marking
On porcelain skin
Is the only way I can pretend
To cope.
Prayers, notes, pleases
And i love yous.
I'm sorry's and
Fake hope.
[i wish i could be dreaming]

I know i should
Want to
Die.
But i don't.
I just want
You
To live
[and breathe and dream and love]

But i know
I know.
That i should have
Expected this.
All of this.
I had known
This day would come
[though i wish it wouldn't]

I hate that we
Won't ever have
That promise of
Someday.
[because you're getting worse
and worse and
worse]

You tell me
Not to worry
About you
And i say
"i cant not"
[i really meant i love you
and I'll miss you
and that i just
hate this.
All of this.]

~~~~~~~~~~~
"Those three words
Are said too much,
They're not enough"
Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol