Sometimes I wonder if you made the right choice,
I always mess up,
Get you mad at me,
How could you be in love with me?
All I want is to make you happy,
But maybe me gone is what you need,
You say you need time, say you need space,
But it never seems to work,
I'm sorry I've got terrible luck,
I'm miserable, sad and needy,
And I cling to you because you make me happy,
Or at least used to,
Now you push me away and seem uncaring,
Do you love me still?
Do you want to be with me?
Because I'm confused of what you expect of me,
I try to keep fighting, but fighting does what?
It leads to more hurt,
I don't mean to be weak,
But when you thought I was strong,
That was actually apathy poisoning me,
Making me feel nothing,
But you made me feel again,
Showed me love and happiness,
Maybe now I'm weak and feeling the pain,
But I'd rather fee that than nothing at all,
Because I never want to be a lifeless carcass
again.
