The Mask I Wear

I swear it's just a mask,
The way I can smile,
Can you really help me?
I promise it's worthwhile.

And all the times I laugh,
Memories of what should have been,
But only pain meets my heart,
When will this finally end?

They say I'm safe,
But I got a weapon to my head,
Will they know what's inside?
Will they know what's been said?

All my life I've been searching,
Looking out to find happiness,
But I never found much of it,
Only what I call temporary bliss.

And no one helps me,
Because my mask hides my tears,
And no one cares,
Because I never show my fears.