I Am/ Within Me

I'm not as nice as you think I am,
I don't believe in life.
There are thoughts I suppress,
I think evil thoughts inside.

But rainy days like today,
Just send me way off shore.
And you'd call me insane too
If you knew the burdens that I bore.

I'm a broken mirror,
That won't reflect the truth,
Only a twisted version,
The only that I ever knew.

I'm not who you think I am
I'm no social butterfly,
I condemn happy endings,
I'm filled with hatred and lies.

My heart may be cold,
But the rain will thaw it,
If it still beats then.
Will you be my friend?