You Don't Understand

I told you,
Hoping it was right.
Yet, your words weren't kind
We both had to fight.

Emotionally, the pain
Sunk deep into my heart.
Now Silence circles us
Awkwardness tearing us apart.

I didn't want to hide,
Didn't want to lie.
Now I regret my decision
My eyes tearing with cries.

I couldn't help myself,
Trapped all alone.
No contact to others, nor to you.
Stuck inside a torn home.

I hate seeing you now,
Only to feel the pain.
I can't tell if you hate me
Can't tell if trust is there to gain.

I know I said I wouldn't,
But hurting you isn't what it was about.
I had to keep sane,
A cut or my mind was out.

I'm sorry it hurt you
But you don't understand
Without a cut,
I wouldn't be able to stand.