Happy Again

I have my kids and family who I know loves me.
I have wonderful friends all around me-
And I know that they love and care about me.
So ow is it I am so unhappy and feel so alone?
I am so tired-
So lonely.
What has happened to me and my life?
Why can't I get it together?

Everyday I do what needs to be done-
I make sure the kids are clothed and fed.
I do the shopping-
Get the kids off to school-
Run them to all their activities they need to get to.

Then at night when I lay my head down,
I try to remember my day-
and I can't.
Most days I have no idea how I even got from one place to another.

Who am I?
What have I become?
Am I dreaming?
What is going on wit me?
Why can't I just be the mom I know my kids need me to be?
Why can't I just be happy again?
How would it feel to just be happy again?