I cry and cry until I'm throwing up,
My emotions escaping my body through tears and sick.
I look at the state of my face in the mirror,
Mascara running down my cheeks,
Staining my drained, lifeless face with black.
Covering me in a blanket of darkness.
I sit in my bed,
Thinking of you,
Wondering why did you go?
Why did you take yourself away from us?
My thoughts turn into tears,
And I just cry and cry.
Sometimes I feel numb,
No feeling at all...
Sometimes I feel empty,
Just wishing to hear your voice...
Sometimes I feel angry,
That this should have been stopped,
Sometimes I feel guilty,
Knowing I wasn't there
And sometimes I feel jealous,
That you are gone,
And we are here.
If I knew the last time I saw you,
Was the last time,
I would have spoke to you all night long,
Hugged you for minutes instead of seconds
And took one last picture of you, your smile, those eyes.
Deep down I know,
You did what you did,
To better yourself.
Right now you are somewhere special,
Somewhere away from all that was hurting you
All that was making you unhappy.
I miss you
But hope that you are ok,
And everyday I pray that you are safe,
And you are looking down on us
Looking up at you.
