White tears

The walls closing around me. I had to leave.
But how could I disappoint those hopeful eyes.

I don't have to save him , I told myself, that was never put on me.

I did this to myself, creating that war in my own mind.
Desire : loaded ready to fight
pity: Weak trying to hide , running from the battle.

Everyone telling me which side should conquer.
Who told them to make up my mind.
How can they know my struggle.

So here I sit crying these white tears.