Dead

I can feel my flesh disintegrating
My tongue burns red as blood is regenerating
My heart bleeds black as it cries for mercy
Meanwhile, my brain swells, in need for urgency

Yet, the agony can't compare to my mangled conscience
Persistent suffocation was due to little obedience
Now, all that's left is a glimpse of hope
God throws me a life-line, but my demons pull the rope

They block my sight as I struggle for remission
Then, they drag me back down to critical condition
They celebrate their success by mocking my pain
My heart is losing it's structure, and there's no chance to regain

I drank poison of the world; now, I have sclerosis of the soul
My vital signs are useless; in the grave I will enroll

Now, I roam in darkness, for I lost my light
O God! hide your eyes from this horrific sight!
Due to my betrayal, I also lost Your trust
Because I allowed Satan's deceptions to turn me back to dust