Who am I trying to convince? Myself or you? Am I trying to say that I love you when I really don't or am I trying to tell you I love you so you'll love me back?
I just want to be your friend, nothing else. I know you don't like me like that anymore. I took that honestly & harshly. I wish you could just grow up and realize that things aren't always going to work around you. There are other people out there, thinking of you; caring about you! But no, you're too selfish to look at the big picture; you just look at the things that are simple and in front of you. Do you even look into the background and see the people you pushed away? Do you even thank your friends, your family for having your back through thick and thin. We've all seen this happen, we've realized things that you don't even realize about yourself. I just want you to love yourself, I want you to realize who you are. I don't know why I am yelling and complaining, I thought I wanted this. I thought I wanted you to tell me how you felt. But now I am back tracking. I want it to stop. I want to scream at you, and tell you that I'm here; I've always been here. You can't push me any further than you have before. I've seen you at your worse. I've been able to experience one of the happiest moments in your life. I love you. I am putting myself on the line, I'm 100% vulnerable. I just want you to love me. I want you to care for me. I want to be that thing that makes you smile in the morning, because I was just that perfect for you.
Time has never changed. I am not dizzy I'm upset, I'm angry, I'm frustrated. I just want you to tell me what you want. Please, please tell me how to change.
