An Everlasting Bond

I seen you there, in my dream,
you weren't listening or looking at me.
Your gaze was on the floor, unaware.
then, my vision got blurry and I couldn't see.

I was only seven years old in my dream,
I didn't know anything that was going on.
Only just being a child, looking up to you,
but in my heart, I knew something was wrong.

Never, have I known you to be sad,
and your smile never left your face.
Your eyes were always so bright,
I then woke up, my heart beating at a fast pace.

I sat up, feeling completely empty and torn,
now a twenty year old woman, shedding tears.
For someone I loved more than anyone in my life,
I shut away the visions, hoping you could hear.

I prayed to you, something I don't often do,
asking if you were upset with me because I was afraid.
Losing your love in heaven or on earth would hurt me so,
and you, my best friend, I would never betray.

I decided praying wasn't enough for me,
so I went to the place where you lay.
Being there brought back painful memories,
as I reminisced on that depressing day.

I was sitting in the pews, gasping for air,
all because I was crying and shaking so much.
everyone was looking at me, but I didn't care,
I loved you, and to my heart I clutched.

I kept telling myself this feeling wasn't real,
that you were still here with me, soothing my pain.
However, you were really gone, looking down on me,
and memories and your love is all that remains.

Now, I'm wishing for you to come back to me, gasping again,
wanting a reason, as my lonely tears hit your grave.
All I ask is that you remain my angel, forever and always,
and to never take away the love you gave.

dedicated to my grandma,
Thelma Elizabeth Lunquist Nelson.
I am missing you.