Wrecking My Life

I can't understand this,
I fall asleep every night thinking of you.
It ends up being a dream.
But it feels so real.
We're going down a stream on a little boat.
your holding me so tight, I feel your arms around me.
You're talking to me about you're feelings,
explaining how much you love me.
You get that ring out of your pocket,
You say "Will you..."
and all of a sudden I wake up...
I don't get the rest of it.
Its all gone.
It's the exact same thing every night.
It hurts me to see that.
How do I make it stop?
How, How, How.
Please help me,
make it vanish.
I don't need this in my life.
All it does is make me broken, and sick.
Only on the inside, will I let my self be a wreck.
Because I can't let anyone know what's really going on with me.