Scared of the Future

Try feeling like I do, so confused about where I stand
Undecided what I want, friends or love, go hand in hand
Seem a million miles apart with no actual connection
So confused about it all and afraid of the rejection

Unknowing of my future, completely stuck with it all
Wanting everything, knowing I can't; fearing the fall
Why does life have to be so confusing when you grow?
Needing inspiration, but even then how do I know?

Asking for perfection, though it's impossible for me
Thinking what I could have changed or did differently
Scared of the future and what dramas it may hold
I'm afraid of the unknown and I fear growing old

I know risks are apart of life, but what if it backfires?
Thinking I could have done more before time expires
But thinking of you, miles away, confuses me more
What am I to do? Where will I end up? I'm so unsure!

By Alisha Sherden
26/06/10