Understand

Look at me,
I'm so torn
I no longer know who I am.

Take me,
But don't expect anything.
I cannot let you in.
Because letting someone in means getting closer.
Letting them see, hear, and understand me.
Letting them in, means opening myself to a vast darkness
I'm not ready to take in.

I cannot trust, I cannot confide.
Trusting you gives you the chance to betray me.

No I cannot put down my walls.
Don't bother to ask.

I have not always been so cold.

You see,
He took my breath away.
I trusted, let him in.
Just to hurt myself.

He used hi bare hands, needing nothing.
Just leaving jagged lines across my heart.

Look at me,
I know you don't understand.
So instead you walk away.
My pain is something you will never get.