Known & Unwanted

I carry traumas from yesterday,
while you live on with open arms.
I do not sleep to dream,
but rather sleep to escape reality.
While your reality is the perfect dream.

To me,
You were like coma.
I was unable and unaware.
You were worse than a nervous breakdown.
Something insuperable.

The heart loves to live,
and I lived to love you.
Our final goodbyes,
created a blanket of smoke over my world.

You were able to survive.
To thrive.
Strong and indestructible is what you are.
Glad you run free,
now, knowing what you want.
All I was left knowing is

everything I do not want.