Forgive Me for Leaving

by No1ButMe   Mar 4, 2011


I sit at the edge of the bed
As darkness begins to appear
How did my life turn into this
Why am I still here
I can't live everyday like this
As I put my head into my hands
I'm hoping one day when your older
That you'll finally understand
He's not a good guy
But I don't know what to do
I won't be able to live with myself
If I find out he did this to you
You're still just a child
And you deserve to live
But I'm not sure how much more
Of my life I can possibly give
You're little body is so warm
And you're smile is still real
I hope someday I can tell you
Just how he made me feel
I know he'll say I was crazy
That I was the one that walked out
But I hope at some point
I can explain what it was about
I don't feel right leaving you
But I can't take much more
I just hope he never ever
Puts you behind this door
I have to leave this place,
I just have to get away
I hope you understand
Not now, but someday
I wish I could help you
I wish for you I could stay
I wish I could take your burden
And tell you it will all be okay
I'm sorry but I must go now
Forgive me for my mistake
But I'm not sure how much
More abuse I can take
Please find me eventually
And I will do what I can
Trust me, I've been there
Just know, I'll understand
I can't do it now,
But in the future I'll try
Please just don't give up
Don't say you want to die
Because your life is so precious
I held it once so dear
I may not be with you now
But know I was here
You can come to me any time
I won't turn you away
Just know I'm sorry for leaving
And I hope you're okay...

-This poem is for my baby sister, she's now 4, who I left with my dad (my rapist)... Annelisse I'm so sorry, I hope one day you understand.-

    report violation
0


Did You Like This Poem?

Latest Comments

  • 13 years ago

    by Bradley Peter

    It's a shame I don't have a copy of the former version to compare it with, but I do believe it flowed even better due to the length of the lines, which in turn, strengthens the message.

    Brad

    P.S. Please comment and vote HONESTLY on every poem you read.

  • 13 years ago

    by Ash

    Every painful moment is neatly etched within this poem. Every word so simple and yet still reflects the choice you've decided to make. This is an amazing piece - sad and painful.

  • 13 years ago

    by Bradley Peter

    What I enjoy about your writing is the effortless flow and rhymes. I also want to say how it feels so genuine, but knowing that it's real, and after you having put that caption at the end, I don't really feel great about praising that aspect.

    I do think a couple of the lines could've been extended, like 'I have to leave' and 'I'll understand'.

    Brad

Read All Comments (3)

More Poems By No1ButMe