Providence in you

I feel it deep welling up from within my heart
my soul inspired by the gates leading to your grace
I yearn for you
Not for your body
Not for your affection

My desire deep runs only for you
Your whole
the entirety of you

For in you my love I find peace
The tranquility of your love calming my frenzied emotions
The wildness of it tamed by the very thought of you
To know you are there meaning more than the actuality of it

In my heart I know you and me may never connect
I may never see the grace I desperately need and crave
But in all the loss learning and love I will do this for you

I will cherish you
I will dream of you
I will yearn search and speak of you
The one I need want and desire
Only you

(rough draft 1)