Waves

Waves of repentance
Smashing into me as the weight of a lifetime
A realism of my mistakes
Pulling, sucking me down
Crashing onto me, suffocating
Beating me into submission

Caring not for the pain
Caring not for agony
and caring not for compassion
The waves of my minds reflection punishing me into dissolution
Time stands still here for all is naught
Reflecting misspent opportunity painfully in my minds eye

There is but one perception of escape
On the waters surface there is but one sail to float me into serenity
My boat
My heart
My love
Lies in you

In you I can find sanctuary from past transgression
In you I could finally find love eternal
In you lies my hopes
My dreams
My life, my very existence

You are my life raft, my wind to my sails
My sanity and belief
My Lost love that causes me all this pain
Of my fault are you sailing away
And as you float from my sight I am left hollow, battered and beaten
With nowhere to lay blame but in myself

(5 min rough draft will post revised just didn't want to forget the idea)