No, this is not how it goes, it's not too much,
It's no big, it shouldn't hurt.
But how can it be so motivating? After so many days,
Shouldn't go that deep, just a mere cut.
No, it's me again, I know sure,
But it shouldn't be like that rite?
When I promise true and honest,
Then why do I keep taking away your hope, your light?
I should apologize, that should do,
But it makes me feel guiltier, doesn't work.
I should change, I should. Shouldn't I?
But I have always been like this. You fell in love.
No, I shouldn't cry, shouldn't be so dramatic,
But what then? When I'm running out of tricks to try,
to gain what I have lost so badly this time,
Your trust, your name, your belief, your faith.
No, I shouldn't be sensitive, why? It's not me,
It is. I'm scared Phoenix, too guilty to apologize.
I've done too many wrongs, apologize and hurt you again,
That's how low I am, feels bad now to look in your eyes.
To call you mine, tell you what's in my heart, hold you near,
When my acts don't show, you're not something I deserve.
You can do much better than me, trust me,
But wasn't I to break you? Why would you trust?
No, I dont want you to do better, I accept the pains you have with me,
But does that mean I dont want you happy? My love isn't true?
Maybe. What can I say? I dont know,
All I do. I don't want to be away, feels like I need you.
No, I don't want to be obsessed, clingy or annoying,
I just want to stay in your arms. Every night and every day.
I don't want to be cruel, arrogant, a tension or a pain,
I want to have you in my arms, wake up to your beautiful face.
So many years, things, days. Questions, Confessions, ways,
What have I done? Where did I go wrong? How did I make it worse?
I want us to be better my love, please stay dear,
You know it hurts the most when you're alone, not strong enough.
