Secret Desire

I have a feeling inside my gut.
I am scared it may be true.
I also have an evil desire for it to be true.
Two reasons...Two evil desires...
One I secretly desire,
From down deep inside my soul.
Two,it might bring me closer to you.
I've gone through changes
And I feel different too.
I desire the answer,
But have know one to turn to.
I think I'll wait,
For at the end of the month...
More wisdom I will behold.
It's a secret I hold to myself.
But I scream!...
To share it with you,
My mom,
And my closest friends.
Time will prove.
For if I wait,
Till the end of the month...
The more wisdom I will hold,
And my heart will always stay true.