Ongoing Battle

No ones there to keep me happy
you are all so far away
in different time zones
different states
different life's
so right now I am alone
crying,
What do I do with myself?
I don't wanna go through
that dark depressing hole again
so I am fighting to keep my spirit.
It's back to fake smiles again
and I lose my senses
battling to keep myself.
Awaiting...
for someone to pull me out of the rain
out of the pain
save me from being insane
and who's to blame?
Can I control my feelings?
Can I be the way before,
before the darkness took over
before the battle begun
to where I was brighter than the sun.
Innocence surrounding before the battle begun.