An Ode To Mother

If I tried to put it into words.
I couldn't.
If I tried to say it all.
I'd run out of breath.
If I tried to write it all down.
There isn't enough paper in the world.
For me to list everything.
You do for me.

Gratitude.
Something I know I don't show enough of.
Even though I feel it everyday.
I guess there just isn't a realistic way to say.
Unless I followed blindly at your feet.
Like a dog heeding to the call of his master.
Spending every waking hour.
Thanking you for all you do.
Even then.
Debates could rage on.
Whether that was good enough.

Seconds float by
Minutes fade away.
Hours pass by.
Days tick away.
Everyday we grow a bit older.
The constant nagging fact of life.
Yet I'll always need you around.
My mornings.
Even on the sunniest days.
Would be sullen without you around.
My nights.
Even on the hottest of them all.
Would be frigid and lonely.
Without the comforting fact.
Knowing that your always.
Just a staircase away.
A heartbeat away.
Everyday.

Pain knows no limitless bounds.
Outstretch your arms.
And catch me.
When I'm falling.
Like you always do.
I'd be nothing without you.
Lost in a roman abyss.
Captured in an empty mist.
A wilderness of painless pain.
Living a life with nothing to gain.
Constantly circling around.
Like a broken winged bird.
Scaling against all the walls.
Trying to find a way out.
Of this insane place.

An eternity without seeing your face.
Realize.
I'd never survive.
I'd never feel alive.
Drifting about the world.
Forever lost at sea.
You helped me find me.
Now I'm lost again.
Without your guiding hand.
Your loving nature.
Everything about you.

Ahhhhhhh!

I don't even want to imagine.
A life without you.
I'd rather be trapped.
Inside a nightmare.
Forever.

Your comforting voice.
Guides me to my best.
Help me see the things.
That I'm to blind to see.
Help me understand the things.
That I'll need to understand.

Someday.
I'll sit on a stage.
Perched in the back.
Living out my dream.
That you helped me reach.
And just before.
We take a final wave to the crowd.
I'll scream it as loud as I can.
And let the whole world know I love you.
And this ones for you.
You can be damn sure.
That first album.
Is gonna have a song.
Dedicated to you and dad.

Thinking back on everything.
Life's funny in a way.
Or we make it funny.
Whatever the case.
I'm really glad I have you.

I think back on all.
The memories we've shared.
All the time we've spent together.
The ones that shine the most.
Are the littlest ones.
Sitting out on the porch.
Watching the cubs game.
Sitting there talking.
While dads at a race.
Those are the moments in life.
That you live for.
That'd die for.
Just to sit in that porch.
One last time.
Me.
You.
Dad.
Kyle.
Mammy.
Gramps.
Patrick.
Uncle Mike.
Aunt Susan.
Ceasar.
Taz.
Wally.
And last, but not least.
Pongo.
Things in life just slip away to fast sometimes.
But in the end, I just wanted to let you know that.
Mom, no matter what I'll always love you.
You mean the world to me, you really do.
You do so much for me and I truly am thankful for it.
No matter how little I may show it at times.
You're the best mom anyone could ever ask for.
And I love you, that I do.