I don't Understand

I used to be fine
I used to be happy
everyday
no matter what

Now

I cry myself to sleep
depression I think
seeps
draining and sucking
my life as i try and
keep my head held high

All the bad
the negative
all of it just
comes at you
attacking
trying to pull you down

It's hard to stand tall
I need help
someone to lean on

I need help
to let go of doubts
fears
all that troubles
my mind and soul

I used to be happy
and so full of life
NowrnI cry myself to sleep

I am weak
maybe think too much
I reach out
cry out
and pray

Give me strength
help me
to let go
take all my troubles away

Give me some peace
let me enjoy something great
help me to reach my dreams

I deserve better
I don't understand
your master plan

I don't understand
what is my purpose to be
I don't understand
how is this meant for me

I try so hard
and everything
used to be great
wonderful
but now
I cry myself to sleep

I don't understand
this plan for me
and I don't wish to cry

Pain;
is too much right now

Alone

These are things I feel right now

Please help me
and set me free