Everlasting Loneliness

by Maria Chatziilia   May 6, 2012


Here I am again, I just can't stop
thinking of you and me
wondering where we went wrong,
and what we could be
it's just me and my silence this time,
the leaves on the tree
Just like them,I feel less alive
'cause I'll never feel you near me

I don't need any one to help me,
they won't really comprehend
I've tried to explain to them
how it feels to only be your friend
I cried in front of them
as I remembered you said this is the end
Then I smiled quietly, thinking of the bittersweet moments we'd spend

They say time heals everything
and that in the end I'll be okay
But they never got to know you,
so what more can they say
They didn't experience what I did
and never knew another way
I'm tired of them telling me I'm stupid
for expecting you to stay

Sounds, images, flavours, odours
all seem so meaningless
when the rest of the world thinks
they are such a bless
without your love, I feel empty,
my feelings I can't express
I don't even smile anymore
while my tears I can't suppress

Nothing is or will ever be
more beautiful and important than you
Even if deep inside I know
nothing's gonna be like it used to
I am still waiting for you,
doing things I thought I wouldn't do
Appearing strong and unbroken,
the girl no one ever knew

And yes sometimes, I do wonder what was my mistake
How did you fool me like that, you were always a fake?
I had warned you before that It was too much to take
I had always been trying to accept all decisions you'd make

As much as it hurts me saying this,
I'm not the one you need
I wish I could make you see,
what I'm writing you won't ever read
But what's the point of it anyway,
you live at your own speed
Let me down, tear me apart,
bring me down and watch me bleed.

With or without me, it makes no difference to you,
does it?
Maybe I was just dreaming
and wishing that I could ever fit
Wasn't realistic enough to predict that afterall,
we'd never meet
So I'll just stop writing you poems,
that was the last straw, last hit.

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