Wishing

I’m sitting here alone
God I wish you where here
I haven’t accepted this yet
It’s already been a year

I remember that day
The words ripped me apart
“He didn’t make it through the night”
At that moment you took my heart

I was so in love
I didn’t think you would die
I thought positive with your disease
I hid the reality behind

That week just wouldn’t pass
Funeral and no goodbye
I sat in my room for so long
Wishing it was all a lie

I couldn’t look at your family
They had lost their only son
I couldn’t comfort them
Everything they fought for was done

Months passed by with only his memory
But I never moved on, I didn’t want to
I tried so hard, but how could I let go
Everything I ever needed was in you

So I sit here alone on my own
Wishing you were with me
Wishing things never changed
Wondering if this is meant to be