Message in a Bottle

Darkened clouds
ready for my last good bye
as lightning strikes
and the world cries

my feet dragging the sand
sinking deeper with every step
fighting against the tide
as i try to catch my breath

not knowing if i taste
salt from a fallen tear
or if i taste a wave
as it washes away my fear

i think if turning back
but im caught in an undertow
i cant find the shore line
and i dont know which way to go

and in my state of panic
i start to think as i drown
if i were a bottle
would my message be found?

would i be read like a letter,
sent to a love once more
or would i be discarded
left to decay on the ocean floor

im left in a state of wonder
as i realize my consciousness is fading
and in my dark abyss
i'm no longer waiting

for i know the answer i seek
from the beginning i've been wrong
i could've never been saved
I was dead all along