My Internal Screams

Will it never end?
Can no one see
The pain I'm in?
I've never been allowed
To be who I want.

I plead to the gods.
I don't think I'm heard.
Doesn't anyone care?
Always alone.
Always silent.

No one understands.
I try to make it end.
Nothing really works.
If this is life,
Death can't be much worse

How do they do it?
Stay so calm?
When you can tell,
They're a mess?
Maybe I'll find out.

Will I ever be accepted?
Or am I destined
For solitude?
For utter isolation?
As I ponder, ice pierces my heart.

Life and Love,
They don't mean much.
At least, not anymore.
Am I too different?
Is that why I'm alone?

In a group all myself.
With only four to call my friends.
I didn't choose this.
Why would I?
No. I didn't get a choice.

Silent and alone.
Trapped in a world
Where I don't belong.
Here in body.
But not in mind.