As Difficult as it sounds - Who are you?

I've followed you since I was a little boy long ago,
Not knowing what to expect from you, I just went with the flow,
Celebrating your grace and mercy for years in a row,
Each and every time, my faith would grow,

But know I see you for who you are,
A child with a magnifying glass, burning us from afar,
No more divine intervention, saving young ones lives in a car,
Is this who you really are?

Are we not worth the effort anymore,
We admired you, trying to get as close to perfect, but still it was you we adored,
Living a semi-righteous life to get to your door,
You are an insufferable bore,

High and mighty sitting behind your desk,
Sending young ones to an eternal rest,
I love you but its just,
I can't follow someone whose will is to send us to death.