Who Am I?

I don't know If I am whom I was,
What happened to me?
I following and accomplished my dreams.
Now I am a doctor,
I feel like I am supposed to be perfect,
with no issues of my own.
I know I am supposed to help others,
But I feel like it's not what it was supposed to be like,
When I was done with college life was supposed to be different.
But You hurt me, and made me who I am now.
A doctor who goes through the motions,
But is always sad, abused, and hurt.
Am I whom I am supposed to be?
You took my happiness away when you raped me.
Can a doctor be hurt like this?
Or do I stand strong.