Shadow of a Lover

Why, I ask you, do I stay?
May I be the masochist that I claim
For every word you uttered tonight felt like the blade
That whispers to me from upon my empty grave.
You promised you weren't like the others,
Yet you're just as bad,
I wish I could tell who you are, lover,
But that would just make me sad.
You're a shadow of a lover, fading in and out
Amongst the sun's bright, deceiving rays
Questions are asked all throughout
The cemetery in which I walk every day
I don't understand but I can hear the singing
Of and end drawing near, but who will leave
And in my ears there is a continuous ringing
That whispers atrocious secrets to me...
The whispers tell me to walk away now
I wish I could disagree
But after tonight I know I should walk out
Yet I stay and heartbreak I know I'll receive.
I can feel the tears threatening in my eyes
While I sit here looking at your words
I don't want to look you in the eyes
For I know I'll see love for another.
You tell me so many nice things
And I wish I could believe
However, I know I'm not enough
I know I will never fully please...
You're a shadow of a lover, fading in and out
Why, I ask you, do I stay?
May I be the masochist that I claim
Might this turn into love?... I have my doubts...