He & You

I need you so much
At the same time I do not
Because He comes to my mind often
And strikes my heart and then runs off
And I slip towards him
Like I am on a rainbow edge
Every time the game is the same
But his words make no sense
He is silent to the reality
Why he does so?
Once in a while he was my hero
And I was the secret in his deep heart
Where I could never see myself
Cause I was so blind
But he had kept his heart split open
Before me
I was too late to see
Things have gone so fast and far
He's not by my side any more
Hard but a must deed is done by me
Letting him; my strength and weakness of all time
Fade from my life
But the memory
I can't' deal with it, I can't
I feel okay for some time and need you again
But here He comes again and steal a look into my brain
In the instant my eyes do wink
He leaves
Sometimes in front of my eyes and sometimes behind
Least when I have my head in the clouds
He's there flying
Nowhere but everywhere
You are my reality and he is my day dream
How to deal with it
Is all what I do not understand