That Gurl

She looks into the darkness
but she doesn't hear a sound
she wonders bout her life
but the questions just go round

she looks down at her arms
they're both flooding with pain
it never made her feel better
but she did it just the same

she writes into her diary
writing down her life
she tries to see the good things
but it doesn't feel right

she looks into the mirror
and stares into her eyes
secretly wondering
should she just end her life?

she tries to smile but it
turns into a frown
she tries to laugh
but tears come flowing down

she tries to hide the pain
but it just won't go away
she always suffers
she's suffering everyday

she never questioned it
but she doesn't understand
she looks at herself thinking
'Is this who I am?'

she looks down at the blade
like she always does
she never goes through with it
she can't stand the blood

one day she might just do it
and then they will see
wonder how I know this?
because that girl is me.