Deserving

Ever wondered where your words are coming from? Even, perhaps, your thoughts? Sometimes, sometimes...it isn't that simple to state "I'm over you" or "I have moved on," or even, "we were not right for each other,"

But what -is- simple, for me at least; is to honestly claim...

{you never deserved me. }

Your half truths did not deserve my attention, your broken promises did not deserve my tears and your mendacious heart did not deserve to be entwined with mine. You never deserved any of me. I never knew this at the time; I was too young and inexperienced, too flattered by the attention...but he showed me what I truly deserved...he succeeded in breaking the barriers you created and showing me what I -truly- deserved.

He taught me...I {do} deserve to be listened to, treasured and loved...he taught me that even though my opinions may be different...they still matter...he taught me, most importantly...I am a person, too. He taught me, my feelings matter, my emotions and thoughts matter... he taught me that {I} matter.

And for that, I thank you for showing me everything I do {not} deserve, and I thank him for showing me everything that I {do} deserve.

I deserve him... I do not and never did

-deserve you.